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Title: Click Click Bang
Originally posted: 2/1/2009, on the kink meme. Link
Length: 1,100 words.
Characters/Pairings: US, Russia. Implied UK/US and Russia/Lithuania.
Premise: Russian Roulette. Tonight, somebody dies!
Time period: Indefinite future.
Smuttiness: 1/10
Funnyness: 0/10
Wrist slashiness: 8/10
Lolhistoryness: 0/10
Violence: 4/10
Would I like it?: It's dark, dark, about the end of the world, and dark.


They sat on the floor, facing one another. The moon outside the bare window washed their angles in pale milk; otherwise, everything was dark. Russia had a half-empty bottle of vodka at his side. America had one of Jim Beam. They had both taken off their shoes, and spread their coats beneath them on the concrete floor. America's shirt collar was open, and his glasses were gone, discarded somewhere into the murk of the room. He didn't need them, because it was too dark to see anyway, and because the picture he held of Russia in his mind was preferable to the Russia actually before him.

The old bear handed America a revolver and said, "Your turn."

America wrapped his fingers around the grip and gazed down at it sightlessly. It was warm from their hands. It was the only warm thing left. Outside, the sky was clear, but an hour ago, a kissing snow of ashes had carefully everywhere descended. This was Houston. The streets below were silent.

He raised the gun and pressed the muzzle to Russia's forehead. Russia waited.

Click.

He didn't even sigh. Just passed the revolver back to the other man, and turned his face half towards the window.

The streets of Houston were silent, as they were in New York, DC, Chicago…and Vladivostok, Moscow, and Novgorod. The Middle Eastern oil fields were on fire. He knew most of the other nations were dead.

Russia brushed a gunmetal kiss behind his ear and pulled the trigger.

Click.

He took the gun with a muttered "thanks" and spun the chamber absently. He heard Russia pick up his bottle, take a drink.

He couldn't rightly say who might still be alive. He knew Arthur was gone. For decades that thought had sent a cold pulse through his heart, but now he was too tired to care. Ludwig was gone, Feliciano was gone. Francis and Antonio were gone. Kiku had starved to death. So had a number of others. Russia had reclaimed the eastern bloc near the start of the war, and so America had murdered them himself.

He waited for Russia to finish his drink, then aimed and fired.

Click.

As he handed the gun back, he asked, "You sure that thing's loaded?"

Russia chuckled deep in his chest. "Don't worry." He spun the chamber, and the gun went tink…tink…tink as it bounced gently against his bottle. "I wouldn't forget Cuba."

Cuba was not the country. Cuba was what they called the bullet. At one point they had thought it was funny, and America guessed that, on some level, he still did.

Russia didn't waste time this round: he pushed the gun below America's ear, pulled the trigger--

--Click--

Then passed the pistol to America and resumed drinking.

It had started as a war over resources--at least, he was pretty sure; a lot of knowledge had been lost in the past forty years, but there had been an energy crisis, right? But things got out of hand. Russia said America had sent up the first nukes, but Russia was a lying son of a bitch. Then the other nations pushed their way into it. The EU had ordered immediate, total nuclear disarmament, and had deployed their armies to enforce it. It mostly worked. Only a few nations caught retaliatory warheads

(Arthur)

A dull ember of anger stirred in his chest, and he cocked the gun and took his turn at the trigger with more energy than he'd mustered in quite some time.

Click.

Of course, he was the one who had killed Liet, poor Liet, who he had once called his friend--in his sleep, while Russia's attention was elsewhere. So the old bear had just as much right to be angry at him.

Click.

The disarmament had turned out so god damned pointless, that's what really got him. They just went back to more old fashioned weapons, and instead of destroying the world in an afternoon, it had taken fifty years. Now they were down to this.

There might still be survivors. He supposed he hoped there were. But they knew to stay away from Russia and the United States.

Click.

He had been there when Matthew died. That was a rare mercy. His brother had died in his arms, cursing him, and America had closed his eyes for him and whispered an apology in his heart which could never be sufficient.

Click.

America looked up and imagined Russia the way he had once been: pale, immense, always that mixture of placid cunning and sorrowful beauty in his eyes. Not at all like now: now they were rough, crippled, withered things, and even if they had wanted to leave that room, America doubted that they could. He had thought for a long time that Russia was his opposite, but in the end they had turned out just the same. Bloody bastards who would do anything to survive. America knew by now that there weren't any heroes, and the worst part was that he didn't even care.

The gun roared in his hand like thunder. He screamed in surprise. Russia's vodka bottle rolled away into the dark.

America dropped the pistol and scrambled to Russia's side. He hesitated before he pushed his hands into the bundle of clothing to find the skeletal body inside. He lifted Russia into his lap. He was far too light. Wet leaked from his skull and spread across America's thighs.

"Russia?" he whispered.

There was, of course, no response.

America pressed a hand across his mouth, and felt tears on his cheeks.

That was it? No last words? Russia was dead, and it meant nothing? (Well, what had he expected? Not for things to end…never for things to just end.)

He clasped the old bear to his chest, and shook, and perhaps he cried, but he couldn't feel it. At length, Russia's body felt cold in his arms, and a sickly dawn was rising.

He kissed Russia's blood-wet hair and felt around in his pockets. "If you love me," he whispered, and he didn't know why he said it, or who he was talking to, "If you love me it'll be here."

Yes. America doubled over in gratitude when his fingers closed around a second bullet, hidden in Russia's clothes. Maybe Russia had planned to betray him, or maybe he had meant to use it on himself; maybe he had even smuggled it in for America, America didn't care.

He loaded the round and spun the chamber, and pushed the muzzle of the gun beneath his chin.

Click. Click. Click…

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Date: 2009-02-17 02:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lady-mirror.livejournal.com
Oh, I loved this story on the meme! It's so dark and fascinating and I loved the way you described the setting and how Russia and America have changed through the years.

For the record, I still think that America was talking to Britannia Angel.

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Date: 2009-02-17 04:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it. =D

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Date: 2009-02-21 06:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] allyoucaneater.livejournal.com
And so everybody dies... Well... that's a... slow end for this world...

America being America, he's prolly talking to the obvious... Ivan maybe >w> Kinda hard to think when your stories always strikes DEEP into the core of my heart...

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Date: 2009-02-21 06:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I measure my success in tears. <3

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Date: 2009-02-22 10:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cleartempest.livejournal.com
Wow, that was intense reading. I love how you described the setting and the state of their bodies.
And...was he talking about the old man?

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Date: 2009-02-22 11:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
The truth is, I don't know. I had an answer in mind when I wrote it, but then hearing a couple friends give their interpretation, I changed my mind. So I'm just really interested to hear what people think.

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Date: 2009-02-27 01:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kainoliero.livejournal.com
I was literally sitting on the edge of my chair when I read this! So dark, so sad, wonderful, I knew I shouldn't read it at work because now I'm almost crying... so perfect. I'll be stalking you. ;3

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Date: 2009-02-27 02:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Sweet! I love stalkers.

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Date: 2009-02-27 01:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blacknoise.livejournal.com
:D I requested this on the meme! GREAT WORK---it totally blew me away, hahaha pun intended.

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Date: 2009-02-27 02:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Lulz. XD

Thanks for the frickin' sweet request!

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Date: 2009-02-27 03:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] orenjipan.livejournal.com
Oh shit the whole concept of this is just amazing. This is so dark and fantastic, I love it I love it. xD

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Date: 2009-02-27 03:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ryoku-chan.livejournal.com
Oh my! This is beautiful! Of coarse in a twisted manner, but still beautiful. I love how well you capture the hopelessness of their situation, despite everything they still cling almost desperately to the hate though I don't think either of them truly feel it any more. The way you go about setting the scene does a good job of keeping the reader informed, and making Alfred a contradiction to his own prior morals and beliefs. Its a good tactic to show how far he's fallen.

I think he would have to be talking to Russia at the end, I don't think the fact that Russia's dead has truly sunk in yet. The 'love' would probably be a sort of ironic love/hate blend between the two because at this point I think they both just wanted to die, but would never admit it to each other.

Thank you for a wonderful read! I'll have to wait till I'm out of school to tackle the others, but I'll leave responses on them soon!

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Date: 2009-02-27 08:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
You always give me such a warm happy feeling with your comments! It's so gratifying to hear someone really get what I was trying to say.

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Date: 2009-02-27 04:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vampire-otaku.livejournal.com
Whoa... that was deeply dark, but in a good way. I'm glad I stumbled upon it.

As to who he's speaking to... I guess everyone's opinions are just as valid as the next. My guess would be Ivan. After spending all that time together in the end, it wouldn't surprise me if there had been some sort of strangely twisted feelings between them.

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Date: 2009-02-27 08:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I'm inclined to agree. In a weird way, I think of this as more of a "romance" between them than any of the other fics I posted in that comm dump.

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Date: 2009-02-27 04:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] underthered.livejournal.com
I read this story on the meme and I FUCKING LOVE IT. You really got down to the raw emotion of the situation, the complete hopelessness and despair. You made me feel so clinically depressed afterwards that I just had to sit there for a while and process it. It's perfect. I think I love you a little bit.

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Date: 2009-02-27 08:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Please go read something happy now. D=

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Date: 2009-02-27 05:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fegie.livejournal.com
Wow.

Um... wow.

I'm pretty much the definition of "speechless" right about now. Reading the list of everyone who had already died; Alfred killing Lithuania himself; how far they've gone downwards, & the very, very end... The very end is really what's sticking in my mind, i think, simply because Alfred, as he's known, is simply not like that. He has to have fallen very far to get to such a point (i think), to that point where he just doesn't care anymore & would rather just end it all.

Sorry, i'm essentially repeating your own story back at you. It was insanely powerful, very bleak, very right.

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Date: 2009-02-27 08:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I can think of a lot of less likely ways for the world to end, yeah.

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Date: 2009-02-27 07:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] -keepthebeat.livejournal.com
You paint an absolutely chilling scene here. Agh. Fantastic ending.

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Date: 2009-02-28 02:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] liverdatt.livejournal.com
This was amazing! Dark, creepy, chilling, twisted and very powerful. I love your description of them as rough and whithered. As for the question... I think it's Ivan, because this story gave me the impression that there was some twisted from of love/hate/romance/hate between them.

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Date: 2009-02-28 05:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you--I'm happy you liked it!

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Date: 2009-03-01 08:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] orangetic-tac.livejournal.com
W.o.w.

The dark end of the world. Somehow this speaks to me more than any armageddon story... Creepy, and extremly sad. Unfortunately, though, totally believeable.

*bows down to awesomeness*

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Date: 2009-03-03 10:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] iamtheuberlorax.livejournal.com
K, well our school just had our big day of standardized english testing, so I'm kinda all out of clever deep insightful things to say. But let it be known that if I was not you would be receiving a literal fanfare of my appreciation. As it is this fic deserves more love than I can provide right now, but rest assured that it is extremely amazing.

(I need to get some new adjectives to describe your work, amazing, awesome, epic, and others are all being overused)

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Date: 2009-03-04 04:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you--I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)

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Date: 2009-03-27 11:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mellamonaranja.livejournal.com
Holy crap. This was really good.
Like... scary good.
I love it. :]

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Date: 2009-03-28 12:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you! =D

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Date: 2009-03-29 08:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] princessarisa.livejournal.com
T-this has chilled me to my very soul.... I-i really don't know where to begin. Beautifully chilling, the emotion and utter detachment they both feel. America's reaction to Russia dying just....just....god there are no words.
The ending was positively haunting. Goregous.
I-i think I love you.

And this is right after I read 'Don't Ever Change', so....yeah...sorta incoherent. Love for Yandere!America is shooting through the roof.

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Date: 2009-03-30 09:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Poor America. He was doing so well up until the end of WW2, but since then he's just gone stranger and stranger... =/ Bad for the world, great for pathos in storytelling, I guess!

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Date: 2009-04-24 03:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ykyapril.livejournal.com
Ah I'm probably very late in commenting this, but I stumbled across a picture drawn for this story on deviantArt, and that small excerpt had me hooked already.

It chilled me to the core, and though I knew the ending already, it really haunted me. Your work is truly breathtaking.

And as for who America had been talking to... I first thought it would be Russia, but then somehow England popped up and demanded that it was him.

Um, enough rambling, I guess. I don't think this comment is enough for such a fabulous story, but I'm not so good with writing comments. May I be your friend (on LJ, at least)?

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Date: 2009-04-25 05:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Ooh, was it Espoirelle/Crosswhisper's picture? The black and white one? She is such a sweetheart, and I love that drawing. (If it wasn't, can I see which one it was? >.>)

Thank you, I'm really touched that you enjoyed the story so much. Of course, friending is always welcome, there's no need to ask. =D

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Date: 2009-04-30 01:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ghostofthemotif.livejournal.com
;_; WAUGH. My heart clenched so many frickin times during this fic. This was amazing and beautiful, and I'm going to be thinking about it for the rest of the day. (and today's my history exam, which isn't going to help)

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Date: 2009-04-30 05:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you. ♥

I, um, hope you do well on your test? >.>

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Date: 2009-04-30 05:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] keikanas.livejournal.com
OH, MY HEART.

this was phenomenal, but ohhh my heaaaartt

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Date: 2009-04-30 05:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Man, I need an icon that communicates that sentiment.

Thank you, the kind words are very appreciated. =D

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Date: 2009-04-30 07:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] noonish.livejournal.com
Ahhh, that end was frightening. It almost didn't get me, but then it did, and my heart stopped for just a second.

Beautiful.

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Date: 2009-05-01 06:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you--that always lovely to hear. ♥

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Date: 2009-04-30 09:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] electriclaugh.livejournal.com
i love the way you write, so much better than me. OTL

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Date: 2009-05-01 06:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
We're all just here to play in this sandbox together--it's not a competition. =D

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Date: 2009-04-30 10:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daitokuji8.livejournal.com
Outstanding :0

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Date: 2009-05-01 06:28 am (UTC)

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Date: 2009-05-01 08:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] radishey.livejournal.com
You are a fricking genius.

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Date: 2009-10-21 10:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_lapochka/
This? this is real literature. Do you mind if I translate it into Russian? There's one translation already out there, but I'd like to make my own.

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Date: 2009-10-22 01:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Certainly, if you like; I'm flattered you'd be willing to take the time! =D May I have a link to it when you're finished?

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