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Title: This Is Ours
Originally posted: Here, for [livejournal.com profile] isakana. 1/3 rare pair fics done! =D
Length: 1100 words.
Characters/Pairings: Lithuania/Latvia.
Premise: The pair curls up together and dreams of the future on the morning of the Baltic Way demonstration.
Time period: 1989.
Smuttiness: 1/10
Funnyness: 3/10
Wrist slashiness: 3/10
Warm-and-fuzziness: 6/10
Lolhistoryness: 6/10
Violence: 0/10
Would I like it?: Rare pair fics sort of by nature appeal to a fairly small subset of the fandom, but it's cute, and about a cool time in history, and it's not any harder on Russia than it had to be, so maybe you'll get something out of it? Also, Lithuania is not angsty, despairing, or martyred, and actually demonstrates a sense of humor! I know, right.

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"You don't need to be afraid," Lithuania murmured.

Latvia shifted his head on Lithuania's shoulder. "I'm n-not."

They lay tangled into each other's laps, alone in a Sąjūdis basement. The carpet was faded and worn thin, and cold radiated up from the concrete floor below. Lithuania's fingers were tangled in the back of Latvia's collar, and Latvia could feel the ends of Lithuania's hair resting on his cheek. It wasn't worth it to either of them to move.

"We're just going to hold hands." Lithuania tucked his cheek in against Latvia's curls, and they both watched the headlights of a 3 AM car scroll through the high window. "In our own streets, and everyone will be watching. He wouldn't dare try to hurt us, when so many of the others have come to see."

"I-I know." Latvia hooked his fingertips into Lithuania's breast pocket, watched how the predawn light glowed across his knuckles.

"Estonia's organized everything…" Lithuania's voice drifted on, silver and soft. "The buses for our people--closing highways where we have to--it should be simple and peaceful. So you don't need to be afraid."

Latvia looked up at him, then worked his way up to his knees and lay his hands on Lithuania's shoulders. Their eyes caught on one another's. "I'm not scared," he said.

The corner of Lithuania's mouth turned up, and he huffed a laugh. "Sorry."

Latvia messed his hand through that tangled dark hair and managed a trembling smile back. "It's okay."

Lithuania leaned forward and touched their lips together, and Latvia shuddered like a blown curtain and draped himself back into his arms.

They were both afraid. They knew that. They knew that Russia would come and watch them when they and their people joined hands from Vilnius to Riga to Talinn, that he would bring riot police, tear gas, body shields; they knew there might be 'accidents.' But fear of Russia and his reprisals was so old it had gone numb, and they knew something else, too, something the West hadn't realized: that Russia was thinner inside his clothes, these days; that he had stopped sleeping.

That maybe he was dying.

"What's the first thing you're gonna do when we're free?" Latvia looked up with a sudden smile, his head tipped back so he could see the bottom of those solemn green eyes.

"Sleep," Lithuania fizzled on a laugh. "As soon as I get the phone call from the UN recognizing my independence, I'm going to crawl under fifteen quilts and go to sleep, and I'm not coming out for about twenty hours--"

Latvia sat up straight, beaming, wearing his enthusiastic America face. "'Hey Lithuania, congratulations! We all recognize you!'"

Lithuania's shoulders shook with laughter. "That's great!" He dropped his head onto Latvia's shoulder. A second later, he made a sound like noisy snoring.

"'Lithuania? Lithuania, it's your president! We're throwing a party in your honor! There's going to be dancing! And sweets! And Belarus will be there! Wake up!'"

A sharp snort, and then continued snoring.

"You don't snore," Latvia giggled. He tugged at the sides of Lithuania's shirt.

"I know." Lithuania sat up. "That's Prussia."

"Hungary snores, too," Latvia sighed.

"A little bit," Lithuania allowed. "But it's cute when she does it."

Latvia, who had shared a wall with Hungary for a number of years, refrained from comment. They smiled at each other for a while.

"What about you," Lithuania prompted. He caught Latvia's hands and twisted their fingers together. "First thing you're going to do."

Latvia heaved a deep breath. "I don't know," he confessed.

"You don't know!" Lithuania launched an attack in retaliation, jabbed his hands inside Latvia's coat and tickled hard into his ribs. Latvia crumpled, pawed at Lithuania's shoulders, helpless with laughter. "We've only been dreaming about it for fifty years, how can you not know?"

"Stop, stop stop--" tears scalded at the corner of Latvia's eyes, and Lithuania subsided, pulled Latvia back in close in his lap. Latvia hitched and hiccupped on his laughter for another half a minute. "I-I j-just mean I c-can't decide! S-sometimes I think I--I just want to walk around Riga again. Just…just look at everything, f-for the thousandth time, a-and finally get the chance to say, 'this is mine.'"

"It is yours," Lithuania said, firm, and touched the tip of Latvia's nose for emphasis.

Latvia nodded, and Lithuania's forefinger skidded onto his cheek. The older nation shifted, then, cupped the line of his face. Latvia exhaled. "A-and sometimes I think…m-maybe I'll want to go travelling! I-I mean, we haven't, we haven't…been allowed t-to go anywhere since--since--"

Lithuania nodded and kissed his forehead, swiped his curls out of his face. "We'll go on vacation," he promised. "Just the two of us. We'll go see all the places we've been hearing about on the radio…once I wake up," he added.

"Maybe I'll come visit you," Latvia said softly as he settled into the curve of Lithuania's shoulder again.

Lithuania had to tuck his chin in against his chest to make eye contact. "Hmm?"

The corners of Latvia's mouth twitched, but it wasn't really a smile. He fingered the brass edging of Lithuania's top button. "Because you'll get your independence first. Y-you…you always fight first, and the hardest. Out--out of the three of us, I mean."

Lithuania bit his lip and looked out past their feet at the carpet. Latvia squirmed in his lap and offered him another smile. "So you'll get free first! A-and I bet you'll have plenty of good advice for me, by the time I'm free! A-and--and--"

Lithuania cupped Latvia's face between his hands and pulled back to look at him. "If I get free first, I'll come and see you, the second you're independent, too," he whispered. "And I'll help you take down all the red flags, and we'll put up your flags everywhere, and--"

"And I'll t-take you out to lunch, where the Venta crosses our borders," Latvia picked up, breathless. "And we'll be able to look up and down the river, a-as far as we can see, and say--say that--"

Lithuania nodded, and they clung to each other.

"And we won't have to be afraid anymore," Lithuania whispered against his throat.

Latvia felt his heart beat faster. His fingers cramped in the back of Lithuania's shirt. "I d-don't even know what th-that's like."

Lithuania squeezed him in around his waist and let out a shaking breath. "That's all right. It's all right; you'll find out."



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--On August 23rd, 1989, approximately two million people joined hands to form a human chain that stretched from Vilnius through Riga to Talinn, in a visually stunning demonstration of Baltic hopes for independence known as the the Baltic Way. In fact, there were no 'accidents,' and the Kremlin's response to the incident was restrained (excepting a somewhat hysterical initial declaration which was later disowned by the Central Committee). Six months later, Lithuania became the first SSR to declare its independence from the Soviet Union.

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Date: 2009-12-14 06:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] minuiko.livejournal.com
Oh my god this is SO CUTE. I never thought I'd ever like Lithuania/Latvia but you've proven me wrong. God, the way you write them ;_;. <333 Also, this kind of line always gets to me: "...finally get the chance to say, 'this is mine.'" Like, the whole not-owning-your-own-land thing is sort of heartbreaking and really hits home.

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Date: 2009-12-15 01:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Talk about an existential crisis, right? There's a lot of fic out there about the gradual, oppressive loss of identity the nations must go through when they're being occupied, and it always gives me chills.

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Date: 2009-12-14 06:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] animedutchess.livejournal.com
...

I'm not into this pairing, but...it's just...the hope, and the determination, I can feel it radiating off of this, and it's really beautiful. It's just...ugh, I'd just keep gushing...

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Date: 2009-12-15 01:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Ahh, I'm so glad it's nice to read even for a pairing that has, you know, maybe five or six adherents. XD I don't think you need to ship it (I didn't when I started this fic, but I've got to say, it grew on me) to admire the resolve of the Baltic states.

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Date: 2009-12-14 07:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] puddingcat.livejournal.com
Oh, *bless*! I *do* like it when they show some backbone and determination :)

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Me too! I'm so tired of the weepy despairing victim feeling most fic about these two have. x_x Yeah, they went through a lot of shit, but by God they stuck it out and supported each other and threw one of the most beautiful revolutions I've ever heard of. How come there's not more fic about that?

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Date: 2009-12-14 07:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sekaigo.livejournal.com
Joining the chorus of "I never thought I'd like this pairing, but...". Which shows what a fabulous job you're doing. :) This is adorable and heartrending (and oh, Russia).

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I know, the bit about Russia broke my heart to write. D= Just like "I know it's a fic about the Singing Revolution so Russia's not gonna come off that well but oh, honey, I wish I could just bundle you up in a blanket and make you a hot drink. At least Lithuania and Latvia have each other. D="

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Date: 2009-12-14 08:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] miss-chella.livejournal.com
This really doesn't feel like a true pairing to me. This reads like an older brother/younger brother comfort fic, even with the kissing, and I've got to say, you do it wonderfully. And the actual, historical event, "The Baltic Way", Oh, Lord, so cute, so historically canon, just squee. You go, Baltic Bros!

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Yeah...I feel like even if they have gotten physical with each other, here, it would have been more about consoling each other than being In Love. But I think a relationship like that between two people who care about each other (as friends who are almost brothers) can be very healing, so...I think I kind of ship it, now. ♥

And the Baltic Way was so boss. The whole Singing Revolution was breathtaking, imo.

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Date: 2009-12-14 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wizzard890.livejournal.com
*happy sigh*

I don't ship it, but God, this was just lovely. I mean, how they're both so close and supportive of one another...It's obvious that their worlds have gotten so small in the past decades, narrowed down to that house and the other nations who live in it; but they've also managed to expand, somehow, to long for all the things Russia would never let them touch.

Also, hurrah for personality!Lithuania! XD

Although I don't know how the hell I'm ever going to be able to deal with the fall of the USSR. Reading the bits about Russia were like a punch in the stomach.

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Thank you, honey; your opinion always means the most. ♥

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Date: 2009-12-14 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] djsoliloquy.livejournal.com
What an awesome event, and a poignant way to sort of lead up to it =D I'm loving the resolve and fortitude they have (without a ton of the, ah... shrinking violet and weepy angst-ridden sacrificial victim vibes >>).

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Yeah, the...those vibes are kinda...what I don't like about the Baltics. I mean, goddamn, history's a bitch and everything, but you can't spend all your time feeling the Heavy Heel of the Oppressor. Don't you have hobbies?

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Date: 2009-12-15 12:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] erueru-2d.livejournal.com


What a lovely fic! I really like how determined these two are. And Lithuania's so sweet~ If only they could keep being optimistic and fearless like they were in '89...

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Date: 2009-12-15 12:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Yeah, it's one of those...'focus on the positive' fics. >_>; But, all nations have their ups and downs!

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Date: 2009-12-14 09:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kaizykat.livejournal.com
1. Awww....
2. Awwwww....
3. D'AWWWWW... <3

Amazingly, this is really extremely sweet without being sickening.

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
That's what we go for around here. XD

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Date: 2009-12-14 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lokichan2004.livejournal.com
Oh, wow. I didn't even know about the Baltic Way until now. If you Google Image "Baltic Way" you get Lithuania, Latvia and Estonia holding hands. :p The determination that people showed to get their freedom back during those days is so inspiring to me. Thank you for writing this.
Edited Date: 2009-12-14 09:46 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
If you Google Image "Baltic Way" you get Lithuania, Latvia and Estonia holding hands. :p

glee hee hee hee

The determination that people showed to get their freedom back during those days is so inspiring to me.

God, me too. And I'm a bit of a dirty Soviet sympathizer and everything.

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lokichan2004.livejournal.com
That makes two of us. I'm such a good little patriot.

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Date: 2009-12-15 12:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Here's to McCarthy and Hoover being dead and in no position to arrest us, huh? XD

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Date: 2009-12-15 05:55 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2009-12-14 10:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] isakana.livejournal.com
Thank you very much! ^ ^ It was really good - I agree with some other commenters that often the Baltic states are portrayed as having no backbone, but they fought hard. It's not really their fault they had a huge country at their backs...

I loved how much hope was in this. The way they were still scared of Russia and yet have quiet resolve and determination was really inspiring~
Finally, it was really cute! Thank you very much for taking on my request and writing such a beautiful fic. ^ ^

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I'm so glad you liked it! =D I really enjoyed getting the chance to write about them doing something sweet and hopeful that showed their inner strength; thank you for such a great prompt. =D

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Date: 2009-12-14 11:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] daegaer.livejournal.com
Eeeee! This is wonderful. Oh, Latvia. Poor lamb. And Estonia, off organising! And, of course, Lithuania being made of just stern enough stuff, yay!

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
You can't not feel for the Baltics, you know? They try so damn hard. It was a lot of fun getting to write them not just getting kicked around, for once. =D

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Date: 2009-12-15 12:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gordafarid.livejournal.com
Thank you, thank you so much for doing this! I had been looking endless for any Baltic stories just about them and no Russia this time!!

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Ah, I'm so glad! =D I'm doing this thing on my journal right now where I'm writing rare pair fics that people requested, to give them some needed representation. It's awesome to see the fic actually reach folks who were hoping to find something like this! XD

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Date: 2009-12-15 02:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] maranta-aira.livejournal.com
"It's all right; you'll find out."
The funny thing is, he haven't. :D He still scared. *shrugs shoulders*

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Date: 2009-12-15 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Yeah; change never makes things as much easier as people hope it will, does it.

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Date: 2009-12-15 03:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladytemeraire.livejournal.com
Ohai, longtime reader delurking. *waves shyly*

I think I love the Baltics more than is really healthy, but really, there's just so much there to love. Like. Their personalities (Hetalia- and history-canon), and the lovely history they all have, and - just - everything. I love the way you write Lithuania here (personality! and a spine!), and oh, Latvia, you adorable little woobie you. But like you said, there's more to them than just being Russia's chew toys.

And I like how this doesn't feel like a "romantic" relationship. Like it's more of a brotherly/comforting thing (which is how I see them, actually, as brothers). But it's just so sweet and beautiful (all your fics are, really), and I keep re-reading and finding little gems I missed, and I'm babbling now so I'll shut up.

Thank you for writing this bit of loveliness!

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Date: 2009-12-15 01:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Ohai, longtime reader delurking. *waves shyly*

I'm sure we've talked before? =o Your name is so familiar! Is this a faux delurking? D=

I've never written about the Baltics before, mostly because I really don't like how they're constantly presented in the fandom: as the helpless moe-eyed martyrs of the world. Lithuania in particular, who in canon is shown as being very nice but also spazzy and weird and funny, but who always seems to get reduced to "brave little martyr victim flower things" in fanfic and -_______- is all I have to say to that. History sucks for everybody, sometimes, and I think it's awfully, well, insulting to those countries to completely define them by their hardships. Lithuania has a personality beyond "Russia's whipping boy" and virtues beyond being pretty when he struggles not to cry. -_-

I'm glad you're okay with it not turning out especially romantic! =D I think if Lithuania and Latvia were to have a physical relationship, it'd be more about, like you said, comfort, rather than passion. And I like that feeling for them. =D

Thank you so much for reading!
Edited Date: 2009-12-15 01:15 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2009-12-15 08:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladytemeraire.livejournal.com
Is this a faux delurking?

No, I'm just stupid. *head thunk* We've talked on DeviantART before, I've just never commented on one of your stories. Y-you remember me?

I really don't like how they're constantly presented in the fandom: as the helpless moe-eyed martyrs of the world.

This is the main reason I don't generally read Baltic fics, especially ones where Russia makes an appearance, even though they are my favorite characters. They do have canon personalities, y'know! And even if they had a ton of hardships, they had some pretty epic moments as well; the Singing Revolution is just one example (and there's a LOT of fic fodder there). Heck, Lithuania took on the Teutonic knights and won. Why not write about that? Like you said, it's insulting to only focus on the negative.

"Comfort" does describe their relationship really well. And you did a good job portraying it; even the kiss was subtle enough I missed it the first time around.

And you're welcome!

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Date: 2009-12-16 06:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Y-you remember me?

I do! =D I try and remember everybody (although that doesn't always work out ^_^;).

And even if they had a ton of hardships, they had some pretty epic moments as well; the Singing Revolution is just one example (and there's a LOT of fic fodder there). Heck, Lithuania took on the Teutonic knights and won. Why not write about that?

Totally, this. And I feel like the only time I ever see medieval Lithuania fic is when he's getting pushed around by Poland! I just. *strangling gesture*

It's the same malfunction I have with how Russia is portrayed in the fandom (a little ironically). Like, crazypants Russia is insulting enough (sure, he's had his delicate moments, but in MOST of his canon appearances, he's lucid and just kind of an adorable jerk!), but then there's the whole thing where if Russia IS going to be shown as remotely human or sympathetic, then it's going to be because of how ~haaard~ his life has been, and how everyone's ~abaaandoned~ him. Like...omfg. How do people NOT think that's insulting? You know, Russia's accomplished a lot of things that didn't involve shooting his own people or his infrastructure collapsing! There are a lot of moments in history where Russia was being downright heroic (the defense of Moscow in WW2 gives me chills when I read about it)...when do you ever see fic about that?

*grumble grumble thoughtless Western bias grumble grumble grumble*

And just like, for the record, I'm fine with a little cultural centrism in the Hetalia fandom. I think it's unavoidable, really, and I don't think there's anything wrong or dismay-inducing about people from (say) America mostly wanting to write about America and the nations that show up the most in American history books (England, Canada, France, yes, Russia, etc). Just...do the negative (Russia) or condescending (Eastern Bloc) stereotypes we have lying around about some countries need to get into all our fanfic, too? =/
Edited Date: 2009-12-16 06:43 am (UTC)

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Date: 2009-12-15 06:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gisho.livejournal.com
So sweet and wonderful. <3 Yay for standing up for yourself.

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Date: 2009-12-15 01:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Yes! =D They did a lot of that.

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Date: 2009-12-15 03:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rotifora.livejournal.com
Yay for history!fic that portrays the Baltic countries in a positive manner. I tend to veer from them because of the angst and general bleakness that they bring to my soul. Though, I love their bromance.

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Date: 2009-12-16 06:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
I tend to veer from them because of the angst and general bleakness that they bring to my soul.

Me too. Plus it gets on my nerves, like...goddamn, guys. Don't treat the Baltics like the only thing they've accomplished over the last 500 years is getting kicked around by bigger countries. These are cool places that have done some cool things, yeah, in spite of adversity a lot of the time, but does the adversity have to totally eclipse their accomplishments?

Blah, that's just how I feel about it, anyhow.

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Date: 2009-12-15 09:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fallenxembers17.livejournal.com
AHHH BALTIC WAYYYY.

*spazzspazz* This is like one of my favorite events in history EVER and this fic was totally gorgeous! LOVE Liet in here! ♥

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Date: 2009-12-16 06:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pyrrhiccomedy.livejournal.com
Oh, I'm so glad! Thank you! I've never written Liet before but I was really surprised by how much I liked him when I did! And God, I know, right? Pretty much everything that happened in the Singing Revolution was inspiring as hell.

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Date: 2009-12-16 03:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] varein.livejournal.com
Well. That was somewhat embarrassing: how could I NOT know about something like that? The Baltic Way...we learn something new everyday! Though I really should've known about that one, I feel...so close to home and everything...

Anyway, this was...heartwarming, and I really enjoyed reading it. It's not often we get to see Latvia in fics, and I loved your portrayal of him. Still a bit of a crybaby (if you can even call him that, considering their circumstances...), but willing to stand up to himself. Lithuania being there to lean on probably helped, too. asdfsjdfsadfölkCUTE! Their relationship is CUTE! That'd be any easy way to summarize it.